I felt it when I woke up this morning. Heaviness, tightness, BIG time downness. And somehow I didn’t think it had anything to do with Atlanta’s epic loss in the Super Bowl.
The heart center. Weighty and sad. Not even so much sad…just intense. Like I had NO idea how to make things better. And not just for me—I was feeling this sense of obligation to take away all of the strife, confusion, and pain that wasn’t even my own.
Crazy, right? I mean, nothing really seemed all that wrong with me personally. It felt like it was coming from somewhere else. Somewhere elusive and from somewhere just out of my control.
But that was it right there–my life as an empath has showed me that SO frequently, I tend to pick up on the energy and the emotions of others. And today was one of those moments where it was like that Miley Cyrus Wrecking Ball…(feel free to sing right here!)
This has happened a LOT since I first heard my true calling back in 2012. I haven’t really gone into the details of all of that before, and more of them ARE coming, but for now suffice it to say that there was a big calling back then. One that I couldn’t ignore.
I learned that it is part of my Soul’s purpose to help people get in touch with their own callings and USE them for a greater purpose. To be the guide and the teacher on this experience not only for myself but for others.
That’s pretty intense stuff, if you really let in what that means. And today, it was like all of the fear and uncertainty of the world showed up at my doorstep. And let me tell you, it wouldn’t be the first time this has happened.
It was one of those moments when I thought to myself….how much easier would it be if I just put all this down, went back to the “real” world, and tried to put back together some semblance of a normal life?
Better yet, why not just spend the day binge-watching Netflix instead of even thinking about all that?
Tempting, for sure.
It isn’t easy sometimes, folks……I am NOT gonna lie. Getting on this “spiritual path”, following the prompts that the Universe gives you with the promise of fulfillment, doing things that don’t seem to make sense in an effort to make it all work? Not going by what looks or sounds right but what your gut and your Soul TELL you is right?
Pretty flimsy evidence, it might seem. Not a lot of backup support from the world at large for it, either. You might feel like you’re REALLY alone in all this, and all for an effort to become more “enlightened”.
Tell me again what this is and WHY I signed up for it?? I was asking myself.
It’s not an easy question to answer. This path is not always perfectly paved with rainbows and unicorns.
But these are the moments when you get tested. When the Universe asks you, “are you sure?”
I’ve been there so many times. But here’s what I have come to understand:
-Your path is always going to be there. Even if you stray away from it for a while. Even if it is for a VERY long while. Trust me, if it’s your TRUE path, it’ll eventually find YOU.
-It’s TOTALLY normal to feel frustrated, stuck, or scared. It’s not anything to avoid so much as allow yourself to experience, and do so without judgement. And what it usually means is that you’re simply getting ready to take the next step and go to the next level.
-ALLOW yourself to feel how you feel about it without judging. Did I mention that already? Yep, it’s THAT important.
-Remember–you have a true purpose, but it doesn’t have to be so serious ALL the time! Yes, it’s important, that thing you’re here to do…..but it doesn’t have to be so weighty, serious, and completely contingent on one outcome. I mean, honestly–it’s a joyful purpose you have, in the end, even if it seems scary or weighty at the moment. Sometimes, the more you step back and ALLOW things to happen on your path, the more easily it all will flow your way.
-Also remember–give yourself a break! You’re embarking on something here that quite honestly, most people don’t have the courage or the drive to do. It’s NOT always easy. Sometimes it’s very scary and feels quite isolating. But you’re here. You’re doing it. You’re staying in the buggy.
-FINALLY….sometimes it really IS Ok to get your Netflix on! Your entire life has to be nose-to-the-grindstone just because you’ve decided that you’re “spiritual” now! Not at all. No matter how big your task, you DO deserve some “you” time. In fact, you need it not only for your own mental health but also (ironically) for the progress of your path. Why?
-Because sometimes, the more you hover, the more you stress about “what’s next” or “am I doing this right” or “why isn’t it going any faster” can actually start pushing away the thing you say you want. Yes, act, of course. Do what you must, take that aligned action and push your edge. But then….. let it GO and let the Universe do it’s part. (This is ESSENTIAL!)
That’s what I have found so far on this path, and these are the ways I have best been able to get around the lulls, the moments of fear, the doldrums. And especially those moments where everything seems completely impossible.
These moments won’t ever completely go away, I don’t think. Not while we’re in the human form. But when they show up, know that they’re there to let you know things are changing. They’re taking shape. And they’re ready to take you to the next level. If you’re ready to go.
What do you think? Ever been at that kind of crossroads and felt ready to give up? Tell me all about it–what you did, how it worked, and what you learned.